Depression and more

Well, I was doing pretty good taking cortitrace (like cortislim), it is for weight loss, but helps with depression also, but the past couple days have been not as great. I think mainly because of a talk I had with my mom. I had briefly talked to her about zoloft, which I took myself off of because my mom and sister make me feel so bad about taking it. She, my mom, had heard me talking about something I was thinking about about a month ago, which was getting back on zoloft. Well, she mentioned nothing of it then, but the next night, she called me really late to tell me she had to ask me about something that had been bothering her. I had mentioned in front of her, that a while back I was considering getting back on zoloft, and my husband had told me that it wouldn't look good if I went to the military doctors, so I didn't do it. Now he tells me he didn't say that, but I know he did, something about not wanting an "exceptional family member" on his military record, didn't look good with him being an officer. Maybe I took it the wrong way. Anyhow, mom called me the next night acting all strange and wanting to know why I wanted to get back on zoloft, and that I don't need it, Blah, blah, blah. Well, it made me feel like total crap, and since then, I feel like I have been thrown into another depression slump. That was a few days ago, and I still don't feel the same as I did before her confrontation about it. I guess I feel ashamed that I feel like I need it, like I am crazy. I didn't ask for depression...I don't even have anything to be depressed about. I have a wonderful husband, who is smart, loving, and provides for me and our beautiful kids. The only thing I would change....I would love more time with him...I suppose that will come one day.
I am sitting here typing all this with a lump in my throat, almost tears in my eyes. I guess it is good to get my feelings out like this...to put them to paper...or webpage so to speak. God only knows who will read my rantings.
I feel great when my parents are here, I guess it is the need for family. Most of the time, it is me and the kids, hubby has face in books, or he is training/flying. Anyhow...I am off my pity potty....for now.

This is my Little Republican with his Grandpa 

Open House and Failing Grades

Well, where do I start?? Today was Open house at Christian's school, I know, kinda late for open house, but it was originally scheduled for the day that Hurricane Ivan hit, and then the kids were out of school for 19 days. So, finally it was held tonight.
I got Christian's report Card...he has a F...Yes, an F in reading. I can't believe it, I knew he was below grade level, but I didn't know he was doing that bad. Here are the rest of his grades:

MATH: 74/C
READING: 55/F
LANGUAGE: 71/C
WRITING: 70/C
SPELLING: 79/C
SCIENCE/HEALTH: 95/A
SOCIAL STUDIES: 94/A

HANDWRITING: SATISFACTORY
MUSIC: EXCELLENT
ART: EXCELLENT
PHYS ED: EXCELLENT
CONDUCT: EXCELLENT


IN THE NOTES SECTION, IT SAYS HE DOESN'T TURN IN ALL HIS WORK AND COMMENTS DIRECTLY FROM THE TEACHER ON THE BACK SAY: Christian's having a hard time staying organized with his work. He loses a lot of it. Keep reading and studying multiplication facts

Hmmmmm...so what does a mother do? I thought he was doing better than that. His teacher told me he was in a group to help with reading, but the group was too big, so he was removed because there were kids doing worse...worse than and F???!!! Is there a way to help and ADHD Child with staying organized. He is currently in speech and doing satisfactory says the teacher. I just don't know what to do. I have taken away his play station, next will be his TV. But am I being too hard? Are his problems health related (ADHD?). Maybe I am just rambling. Any advice and suggestions would be greatly appreciated.

The past couple days

Well, I have been quite busy. Mom and dad were home for the past couple of weeks, it was nice. We found a relative on my dad's dad's side of the family, that we didnt' know, found them on ancestry.com. Pretty cool, come to find out, they don't live to far from us.
Anyhow, been doing lots of cleaning and stuff, other than that, not to much exciting going on. I can't wait for Thanksgiving and Christmas...is it too early to put up the christmas tree? I can't wait, our first Christmas in our new home.
We finally got our backyard cleared of all the little trees and underbrush, cost us 600 dollars, from what I hear, that is a great price. Our neighbor paid 1,000 and someone else quoted us 2,000 dollars to do it. So, God again, was looking out for our best interest. Heck, after Ivan hit us, we didn't think we would be able to afford to get the back woods cleared out...but God provided...as He always does.

The Story of a Life

The Story of a Life
A great blog

What a day!

Man, because I was up so late watching the election results, I slept late. So, since my day started late, I didnt' get all my chores done. But I did shampoo Elijah's carpet today, still couldn't get all the cheeto stains out of the carpet. He likes to mash them into the carpet, leaving a nice cheezy orange stain. He isn't supposed to take food into his room, but he sneaks it in there, I am going to have to start spanking his butt for it, I don't want to, but if I have to, I guess I have too.
Elijah scared me half to death today, he bit into one of those glow in the dark, glow stick things, used at halloween while trick or treating. He came to me saying he needed a drink, he stuck out his tounge and it had green glowing stuff on it, I freaked out, had him spit it out, and washed his mouth out with my tea, having him spit it out right on the carpet. Hubby was telling me to call poision control, but I freaked, I didn't know the number and couldn't think. He got on the phone with them, they said he would be ok. So, I made him drink some more tea, and watched him. It is a couple hours after, and he is still ok. Sure freaked me out though.

Well, I gotta go, gonna shampoo the carpet in the living room.

BUSH WINS SECOND TERM!!! GEZ, AND I WAS WORRIED!!! 

Kerry Currency 

Election day....first post...

Well, I am nervous...anxious...can't wait til the results start coming in...it is 10:30 am here in milton Florida...Bush needs florida...I have my fingers crossed...and my toes...hehe

I voted today!

Well, I finally got out of the house to vote early today. There was no school today, so both the boys went with me. Of course, I voted republican down the board, and voted no for amendment 3, for all the other amendments, I voted yes.

Update on the diet...I failed miserably, I got a sinus infection, and a sore throat that felt like I was swallowing razor blades, and all I wanted was ice cream. I am still not feeling 100%, but in a couple days, I will try again.

Well, I am anxious about the election, I told my husband that if Bush lost, I would wear black and be in mourning for the next four years!! Just kidding. Of course, I would be sad. Anyhow, just ranting now.