Updates

Thanks to everyone praying for my neice, Noelle, the test results revealed two urinary tract systems connected to one kidney. They are running more tests, but she is ok, and at home for now.

I had my son, Christian tested for him to return to public school (I have been homeschooling him this year). I am so pleased, he tested above grade level in alot of areas. He is no longer behind in anything.
Here are his results:
(he is currently in 5th grade and 11yrs and 1month old)

Score Summary:

General Information Grade Equivalent was 5.4th grade level
age equivalent 11yrs old

Reading Recognition Grade Equivalent was 6th grade
age 11yrs and 4mos old

Reading comprehension Grade Equivalent was 8th grade
age equivalent was 13yrs and 3mos old

Mathematics Grade Equivalent was 6.7th grade
Age equivalent was 12yrs and 3mos old

Spelling Grade Equivalent was 6.9th grade
Age equivalent was 12yrs and 4mos old

I was worried that I was cutting it as his teacher, but apparently I was doing much better than I thought. Great Job Christian, we are so proud of you. :-) He should be starting public school next week, and I might get a job or take some courses at the community college.

I am sick again...darn cold, I hope it is gone by saturday, I don't want to miss the crop at scrap in stuff on saturday. Please keep me in your prayers, also my son Elijah, he is sick too and has missed two days of school this week.

New Scrapbooking place

I went tonight (saturday) to scrapbook at a new store. I love it, it is just the right size, the people are way laid back and friendly. Last weekends events may have been a blessing in disguise. I didn't get to crop with my sister, the doctor took her off her pain patch, and now her hands hurt so bad she can barely hold a phone (car accident). So, not sure if I am gonna be cropping with her for quite awhile. :-( I got lots of pages done tonight, and hope to get them uploaded here tomorrow...well, today, cause now it is sunday, lol. I also met some new ladies while scrapbooking, they were really nice. I hope to see them next saturday....I already have my reservation. :-)

Dead Mom Club

OK, I finally watched last nights episode of Grey's Anatomy...I was a blubbering fool through almost the whole episode. The whole cancer issue with Georges' dad really brought up some grief that I have been trying to cover up or at least thought I was through with for the most part. It was just too real for me, I was feeling what he felt (the character). The pit in the bottom of my stomach, the lump in my throat. You are walking around feeling like you are moving in slow motion, and the rest of the world is just speeding right past you. In the midst of your loss and your grief...life is continuing all around you. For me...time was standing still, the pain was agonizing. I still remember the feeling I felt sitting in the doctors office with my mother when the doctor told us she had cancer...seeing her cry, trying to hold back my own tears...not knowing we had less than two months left with her.

When George found out the doctors removed the cancer at his fathers request, he was so angry. He was now losing his father sooner. He could have had a few more weeks or months. I sometimes feel that way about my mother, wishing she hadn't had the chemo. Thinking that if we wouldn't have had her get it, she would have survived a little longer, had a little more time with her. But I have to remind myself that she would have suffered greater and probably longer.

You know the writers know the what they are writing about, they have been there, they must have been. Like Yang said on this episode...you are now a member of a club, one you didn't ask to be a member of. George is a member of the Dead dad club...I am a member of the Dead Mom club. And like him, I just dont' know how to live in a world where my mother does not exisit anymore. Even a little over a year later...sometimes, I forget how real it is. She is gone, and I have a membership to a club I never wanted.