How sweet...my cat and his boy...:-) 

Forever 50.....Today is moms birthday. I feel empty, lost, I wish I could talk to her. Seems like just yesterday we surprised her on her 50'th birthday. She would have been 51 today, she looked so young, and she will be forever young in my eyes. I still can't believe it, cant grasp it...I will never in this life see her again. She was my best friend, she was the one who could always bring me out of depression. I am thinking about taking dad out to eat for moms birthday, kind of a quite acknowledgement of the day of her birth. Next week will be 6 months since she left us, life will never be the same without my momma. Happy Birthday Momma....sending you my hugs and kisses on the wind. 

I am so Hurt

(edited to protect family members) Ok, I thought I would edit the post to make it more anonymous...A family member is using stuff that she says my dead mother said about me to hurt me...how do I handle a situation like this? It seems so evil to me to use someones dead mother to try to emotional attack and hurt a person.
Also: When my mom died (of terminal stage 4 lung cancer), This family member asked my sister..."Do you think they killed her?" Now who in the heck is 'they'? I am assumming she means me, my husband and my dad, because we all lived in the same house...I dropped it and never brought it up to her. Guess I had to get it off my chest since all this happened, how do I emotionally get past this? I havent' slept all night.