Pulling myself up...

Well, after a bad weekend and mostly bad week, because of much drama and depression, I have finally pulled myself out of it. When something bad happens to me, it usually affects me for awhile. But, I have decided to pull my self up, kick off the dust and pull the knife out of my back and move on. Seriously. Too much drama for me to post what happened here. I have decided to move forward and make new local scrapbooking friends. I am keeping some of the old ones, they are just such sweet women, I am just unable to crop with them currently.
I am cropping this saturday at a local store, one I have never cropped at before, it looks nice, not as big as the old one, but that doesn't matter, they are nice just the same. And, my sister will be with me, so that is a plus, and great for her to get out too and fellowship with some women and make new friends.
I am going to go ahead and keep scrapbook fellowship, it is a group I initially started to help my sister meet some scrapbookers in her area, I did it with the best of intentions, but it caused problems for me personally and I almost deleted it. But after much sleep, wellbutrin and prayer, I have decided to make that group a worldwide group for croppers to chat, do online challenges and cybercrops, and then created a sub group locally. Kinda like I have done for Militarywives4christ, I created a main group over 7 yrs ago, we are now almost 200 membes strong, people come and go, but we still have members who have been with us for years. We also have smaller groups in states with large military bases. It is a big job, but I have great moderators who have helped me greatly.
I am feeling encouraged, and more up to the challenge. I dont' think I would have done this, had the other door been slammed in my face. Something I didnt' see coming. But like I have always heard, 'when a door closes, God opens another one.' He is working good for me in the midst of the bad. Things will get better. I had no intention of heading up another large group, but maybe that is what God wants for me right now...I hope He will reveal His will for me, things would be so much clearer then. But I have hope.