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Huck being gone really sucks, this is one of the times it really sucks having a king sized bed...it is so empty. I am trying to keep myself surrounded by family and friends and trying to make new friends as well. I mean, all i have is my father and two sons and a girl needs to have some chat time and fellowship time with someone other than her father and kids all the time...I am a 32 yr old female for petes sake, lol. I have a sister, but she has six kids and she can't spend the time with me I need...I am gonna be really needy for the next 6.5 months...anyone want an adopted daughter or sister? I am now taking applications, LOL.

I had a scrapbooking event at my house and only one person showed up...after I ordered 5 pizza's to feed everyone!!!! I don't think I will be such a gracious host in the future...I try to be a good friend, I try to be giving of myself...all I want is a little reliablity in people. When you say you are gonna do something, do it. Say you are gonna be somewhere, be there...or at least CALL and let them know in advance you aren't coming. I mean I can understand that things happen (like flat tires, broke down cars, illnesses, deaths, funerals, etc.), but some people just like to back out at the last minute, giving no regard for how much planning or money you put into an event.

I just wish I had my best friend Marie...she gets me and I get her...and she was almost always there for me, mind you, she has her own family, but she was there for me most of the time. I am sure I could call her in the middle of the night if I was scared and alone, and she would come stay with me, I can't even say that about family...other than my father, cause hey...he lives here, lol.

Marie, if you are reading this...I love you and miss you, friends like you are few and far between. I miss our scrapbooking nites together, and our dinners at Captain Georges, the playgroups we used to attend with each other, and the lunches we would have with the kids.

Anyhow, enough of my rant...I know I will get through these trials...it just helps to have some close understanding friends along for the ride as well.