Small update

Started therapy with a mental health counselor last week. Feels good being about to unload and it not being on my poor friends, lol...I know they must be sick of it all, lol.
Anyhow, since then, I have started having weird dreams. Worst was last night/this morning...I dreamed that my sister was pregnant (she can't get prego anymore) and whatever was inside her was trying to get out, I could see the face and hands trying to push through her stomach...she was in a lot of pain. When I realized it wasn't a baby, but something evil looking, I spoke to it, told it to leave her in Jesus' name...it turned to me (from inside her stomach), I could see it's face pressing through her stomach and it gave the evilest smile I think I have ever seen...it was demonic in nature. My mom was there, on the other side of me, for some reason we were lying on a big bed, me in the middle, my mom and sister on each side of me.

I was terrified, trying to crawl over my mother to get away from it....then I woke up. It was very disturbing.

I have been speculating over it's meaning, and I don't like the possible meanings...and I do believe God can give us dreams to tell us things...or it could just be a dream that my current stressed out mind gave me over the current situation going on in her life and it just manifested in my dreams. I dunno, but I don't like disturbing dreams.