It has been a long time since I have written anything. The holidays were hard. I really miss mom, and I found that all I wanted to do for Christmas and New years was sleep. It was much easier than facing the pain I was feeling. The kids had a good Christmas, they got all the stuff they wanted, and were very pleased. I have been struggling alot emotionally lately, but I am trying to break out of this rut. I need lots of friends and prayers right now...mostly your prayers.