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This and That...

Well, well, well....I finally finished my externship, last week. I got my 300 hours in...but no job yet. Tuesday I went to 24 dental offices, briefly spoke with front desk and left them my cover letter, resume, and a letter of recommendation. I also found some job ads on craigslist, 6, which I sent my resume to all of them. Still no bites yet...keep me in your prayers. :-)

Christian is still dealing with the Bells palsy, but we finally got a referral for him to see a specialist to do a nerve study. I will update more when we find out what is going on. Christian made A/B honor roll at school, so proud of him!
Elijah is growing like a weed, and is maturing so much. His group therapy is definatly helping him learn better social skills and such with his asperger's syndrome.

I have put one of my macaws on craigslist for sale, one that I purchased from my sister. I already have two other birds, so Sunshine needs a good home...there is a rehoming fee of course. Any takers? Look how cute this feather baby is!


Got some great news! Huck got new orders...to stay in our area! God is awesome. He will be teaching at JU, and working on earning his Masters Degree! I will start taking some courses after the new year, hopefully at JU. Got to get those prereq's out of the way for Dental school...God willing!

Will update more later!

Updates and all...

I know, it has been awhile! Alot has happened...we spent 10 days in Colorado, it was beautiful, and we got to see family we haven't seen it years. It was super fabulous until....H1N1 hit us all hard!

All four of us got it, including my dear hubby's sister's family, his mom and dad too. We had to fly home sick, coughing and hacking, but the fevers were gone. Still a couple weeks later, I am still coughing and hacking, this one sure lingers...but hey...at least I have lost 7 pounds from it! Speaking of weight...I am down a total of 57 pounds since May...I really need to kick it up a notch or two and get serious about my weight...darn stress eating! lol

This past Friday the kids got out of school early and Huck took them to Navy Medical to get check ups for the Exceptional family member program...well....when he picked up the boys, Christians left side of his face was paralyzed. It was a good thing they were on the way to the doctor.

Turns out, the doctor says it is likely from the influenza...aka...swine flu! He has Bell's Palsy. They took some blood, gave him a prednisone prescription and and anti viral, and they will check him again on Friday. From what we are told, we can expect it to last anywhere from 2 weeks to 2 months.

I went back to my doctor for my check up from my last surgery...things are looking good, the incision is almost completely closed...they removed the implant a month ago, I sure am healing slowly...probably from the prior infection and then the flu on top of that. So, that being said...8 weeks after it fully closes up, he will redo the surgery. Yay me! LOL

The kids had an OK Halloween, Christian wasn't himself, the whole facial paralysis kinda bummed him out, poor fella. I wish I could take it away for him. But, we wanted him to still try and enjoy himself so we went to a friends house, ate, dressed up and went trick or treating. Told him he has to keep his chin up, not to let this get him down.

Anyhow, that is about it for now. Will update more later.


ta ta for now!

Implant Update..

Well, sad to say....as of last Wednesday...they removed the right implant. I was so upset...I was in tears in the waiting room outside of the surgical area. At least I was alone, cause if Huck was in there, I probably would have cried worse!

Doc W numbed up the incision site...that in itself hurt. Told me I would feel lots of pressure and tugging....NOT....I felt my skin ripping as he pulled that full Size D silicone implant out of that inch 1/2 opening! I was yelling "OUCH!" while he was pulling it out!

I was so tense while he was pulling it out that when he was done my muscles in my arms and chest were trembling!

Now, almost a week after he removed it, the only two stitches he put in, came out. The incision is still open and draining, and I am very worried. I go back in to see him tomorrow morning (TUES).

Please continue to pray for me. My mood has been horrible...as well as my eating habits. I know it is no excuse, but I am gonna use it anyway, lol.

Anyhow, I will post an update when I know more.

Uh oh....

Well, things have been going great at my externship site...learning lots of stuff...the people there are great. I love them gal's! I owe them, I have learned so much.

Other than that, things are pretty much sucking eggs! My implant surgery...went well....then the right side got infected, incision opened, got stitched up, incision opened, got stitched up again, and now the Doc is wanting to remove it this Wednesday if it isn't looking well. I am pretty much sure he will remove it....then have to have the surgery again in three months! I swear I feel like the unluckiest person right now (although I know that isn't true...just feels like it).

The doc said to me before I left, "I am surprised you are taking this so well." Hmmm...good thing he wasn't in the car ride with me on the way home....panicky, tearful, wanting to eat, wanting to shop, anything to make me feel better. I ended up going home and eating some tortilla chips and taking a nap!

Then I went to my weight loss doctor (I made a stress eating stop at starbucks on the way!) whom I hadn't seen in 2 months...I wasn't looking forward to seeing him, cause I know I have been stress eating. I have only lost 14 pounds in the past 2 months...and 14 of it was LAST MONTH! After the surgery, and infection, I kinda fell off the no carb wagon.

So, since I am dealing with this upcoming surgery and possible infection, Doctor B told me he will tighten my lap band next month. Told me to eat protein for healing, not to be stressed out, and not to stress eat. Yeah, good luck with that! LOL.

I will update more after Wednesday!

It's been a long time!

Wow, it has been a long time since I really posted an update or anything....where do I start?

A lot has been going on over the past year...good things. I started Dental Assisting school in October of 2008...and just finished my classes two weeks ago. I started my first externship (like internship) with my dentists office, they are fabulous, and so helpful. I have learned so much, and love my job more and more each day. I find myself wishing I has gone to dental school to become a dentist. Is it too late? Hmmm.....8 more years of school seems a bit much for a 34 yr old with two kids. lol.

Friends....I have made new friendships while in school, support has been great, study time, girl time...people with common goals. Tracy and Valerie are my closest gal pals from school. Tracy is a couple years younger than me with two kids my sons ages...and Valerie is a young, vibrant 21 year old...that keeps me and Tracy both young ourselves! She is a sweetie pie. It is amazing how much Tracy and I are alike and how we are not alike, we balance each other out.

Scrapbooking...haven't done much since starting school, had some drama that I didn't care to deal with, I removed that from my life and I am so sure I will enjoy scrapbooking again in a drama free zone. I deleted the scrapbook group that I had for over 3 yrs, cause it was getting just ridiculous. No time for two faced gossipy gals, ya know? I know we all dealt with that crap in high school...time to grow up ladies! Do unto others as you would have them to unto you...It is all good though...I am at a place in my life where I feel so much better about myself and have so many goals. I know what I want from life, family and friends...it's all good. :-)

I had lap band surgery a few months ago, and I am down 42 pounds last time I stepped on the scale, still have a lot to lose, but I am taking it one day at a time. Friends and family have been so supportive! I have good days and bad days...most of my bad days are around a certain time of the month when I just want to eat more! LOL

A few weeks ago, while in the shower, I notice that one of my breast implants looked smaller....crap! A deflated saline implant. So, three weeks later, after I got all my medical records from the two previous states I had the surgeries in, yesterday...I was able to get them redone...I upgraded them (LOL) to silicone and went a bit rounder and fuller. Keep in mind, this was my 5th implant surgery! I do not recommend saline implants to anyone! The failure rate is way to high...and when they go flat....they go FLAT! The silicone is now much safer, it is a cohesive gel that doesn't separate or run out into your body in case of a failed implant. Anyhow, I am hoping not to have another breast surgery for 20+ years for a failed implant. (knock on wood)

Anyhow, that is about pretty much it for now. I will try and update more often. Thanks for the comments and prayers and your friendships.

25 Random Things about Me...

1. I was born and raised in Florida
2. I moved to Virginia beach Sept 25 1994 then back to Florida in 2003
3. I haven't' seen my best friend in almost 4 years
4. I love sushi
5. I love scrap booking
6. I love my therapist!
7. I want to travel the world when the kids grow up
8. I love Sci Fi/Fantasy films/shows
9. I love writing
10. I miss my mother
11. I miss my hubby, he is deployed
12. I love school
13. I want to be a dental hygenist
14. I wish I had another sister or even a brother
15. I hate talking on the phone most of the time
16. I am addicted to myspace apps
17. I should be in bed right now
18. Last movie I saw was Underworld: Rise of the Lycans
19. Next movie I plan on seeing: Madea goes to jail
20. I want to get bypass surgery
21. I am analytical
22. My new teacher hates me
23. I got a 90 on my last exam....100 after the extra credit was added
24. I will do well, despite anyone who tries to tear me down
25. God has blessed me with a wonderful husband and kids

The New Adventures of the Old Michelle

Events of recent have made me really look back to reflect over who I have become over the past couple of years.

As I look back, I don't see the same person I was at all...

In the past, I didn't let people in my life...I didn't trust people, the ones I did let in my life, I kept close, and that was just my family and one very best friend, and a great email group of Christian Ladies (love ya JUMS).
I didn't try to make so many people happy, I kept to myself...I was a bit of a recluse.

But, after the death of my mother three years ago, I went into a deep pit of depression, I laid in bed for a couple months, or at least it felt like it. Then one day, I got up, said to myself..."This is not what mom would have wanted for me...I must get out, make friends, be more like mom was..."

Well, three years later, I am not so sure that was the best decision for me. I have tried to be a 'friend' to everyone, go out of my way for everyone, to do as much as I could for my friends...I wanted to be the best friend I could possibly be...with no benefit to me other than their friendship in return.

But, over this past year, I have been hurt a couple times, by a few different 'friends.'

I have heard what a 'sh*tty' parent I am.

I have been told that I step on a lot peoples toes, that people have to 'walk on eggshells' around me and that I say a lot of stuff that offends people...when asked what...this person wouldn't tell me what I have said. Now if I am offending people, how can I learn from my 'mistakes' if I don't know what I said or did in the first place?

Since moving to Florida, I have had my fair share of "DRAMA." I am so ready to pull away from everyone, get my mind clear, have a pity party for awhile (where do I find decorations for that? party city?) ;-), heal my wounds and maybe slowly work my way back into the mix of things again. Because right now, I lay in bed worrying about this and that, not being able to sleep, tossing and turning, and sometimes just wanting to cry.

See!!! This is not the old MICHELLE, maybe when I dropped the "mi" off my name and had people call me Chelle, I lost some of my thick skin. It is silly, but for some reason that example popped into my head right now, lol. Maybe I have given up part of myself somewhere along the way.

In the past I didn't care if something I said offended some people...I said what I felt, but without being hateful about it. I said what I thought....sometimes putting my foot in my mouth (as I still do)...but that is what my husband said he liked about me. What ya saw was what ya got...no fake-ness...no 2 faced-ness...I was who I said I was...I wasn't a friend to everyone, and I wasn't a people pleaser. At least I don't think I was, at least not to the extent I seem to be now.

Well, at least that is how I feel at the moment...I just had to get all this out...to vent...maybe it will help me heal emotionally.

A dear friend of mine told me that she thinks the problem is that I have let too many people in, made myself too transparent, thus enabling them to hurt me with their actions and words more than if I wasn't as open with people. I have often been an 'open book.' I don't like 'fake' or judgmental people, and I try to steer far away from being one...maybe so far that I end up driving in the wrong direction of life and ending up meeting others 'head on.'

I haven't been in church a lot the past few years, I have had my issues...my walk with God isn't what it should be. I want to put myself back on the straight and narrow, I can remember how much happier I was when 'Christ' was my first priority. I don't know how I have gotten where I am now...all I know is that it is no ones fault but my own...and I don't like who I have let myself become.

So, here is to a better year, with less people pleasing and more speaking up for myself...


yeah right.

lol

My new blog title: The New Adventures of the Old Michelle (snicker, snicker)