Saturday, November 03, 2007

Little Lost Girl....

My dream last night:

I found a little girl, no older than 5, she was beautiful and so sweet, she had blonde hair. She seemed to be lost and came to me for help....I wanted to keep her. I carried her around with me for awhile as if she was my own, she then told me she had to leave and I started crying. She turned to me and told me that she could come back, and she placed her hand on my stomach. She began to walk away, and as she walked away, with her back to me, She met up with a tall dark haired man wearing white...her clothes then turned white also. I watched them as they walked away holding hands down a long narrow road...I was crying not wanting her to leave.

In this dream I had, I told my husband about the girl and that I wanted to have her, he was upset. He didn't want the little girl. Instead, he was riding around in a nice blue firebird. He then started to mock me about my weight. Telling me that I had enough stretch marks and didn't need another baby. I was so upset and crying...then I woke up.

While I have hope that I could have this little girl that came to me in my dream. I am also reminded of the fact that my dear husband has made it quite clear he doesn't want anymore children.
I know he would never make fun of my weight...I think my stress and anxiety were displayed in his reactions in my dream, along with all my insecurities. And he does want his firebird restored, so I think that is why he was there with this firebird.

Anyhow, I am very sad this morning because of this dream. If I am supposed to have another child and it is supposed to be a little girl...maybe God will send her in another dream to me.

1 comments:

Just your everyday average married momma... said...

you just never know honey....what is meant to happen will...what isn't won't.... It's not in your hands, nor in H's hands...it's not up to you guys..... Besides...to have a little girl in your life doesn't mean that you have to necessarily birth her..... maybe there is a little girl out there already that needs you guys as a family or just you as a mother figure.... just wait and see what life brings!
As for the other things you talked about in previous posts... please do keep me posted!
I still miss you!