Christmas Day

Christmas day was kinda laid back. I was very thrilled when my dear husband called and we all got to speak to him, that was a great present to me. Christina, Jeremiah and the kids came over for turkey around 3pm. Stayed a few hours then went home because my sister was tired. I was majorly sad/lonely and bored by 7:30/8pm. I asked dad to go to the movies with me...he said no, he didn't want to. I asked the boys....they said they didn't want to go. I was going to go by myself to a late movie, around 9:45pm...but then got scared to got out at night by myself. Not fearful of going, but fearful of getting robbed or killed in the mall parking lot after the movie let out near 11 at night. So, I groveled in my own loneliness on myspace, lol, while dad watched boring TV programs in the living room.

I was kind resentful of him not wanting to go with me, and then the kids not wanting to go either. I felt like I needed to do something, I felt like the walls were closing in on me, the holidays and my husband being gone were/are getting to me. And of course, when you need people to be there for you the most...they usually aren't. I was gonna see a movie I wanted to see sometime soon with someone, but they made plans with someone else...anyone want to see Sweeney Todd with me? I sure can't take the kids to that one.

Anyhow, only 5 months and 10 days to go til my hear husband comes home. I am considering looking into a job, but I don't want to work for a under 11-12 dollars an hour...or I can start ebaying again. I need to do something to help out...especially if we are gonna put the boys in private school, we will see. I am also going to look into doing phone work from home. Any how, that is enough of my rambling for today, thanks for reading this far, ;-).