wEeKeNd uPdAtE

Ok, I have had a great, but tiring weekend, lol.  Friday night my sister, Pat and I went to see Beth Moore at the Jacksonville Veterans Memorial Coliseum.  It was awesome, got home late, and had to get up early to go see her speak some more Saturday Morning, the event concluded at noon. And after we finished by all having lunch together at Cracker Barrel.

 

Something I got from Beth Moore’s Living Proof live event was a strong desire to be closer with God again, And towards the end of the event...I finally realized that I have been angry and kinda bitter towards God for not healing my mother.  Now I just need to accept that He, Who is AWESOME IN POWER AND GLORY, chose not to heal her of her cancer, but he had a reason and that my mother wouldn’t want to come back in the first place. 

 

For the past 2 1/2 years, I have always admitted that I had questions for God, like "why didn’t he heal her?"  Because God knows that I fully know and believe he can heal people.   But now, I have come to the point where I realize and accept that I have been angry for a long time.  Like a child angry at a parent for not getting what they want. I just need to get to the point where I can fall on my face in prayer and tears to him and get my relationship back where it should be. 

 

Even my BFF Tiffany could tell that I didn’t have that fire in my heart for the Lord like I had in the past, I told her I wanted it back, but I didn’t know what was holding me back.  Now I feel like I know, but how do I get over the anger and hurt of losing my dear mother and me having the knowledge and faith of knowing my God can heal and has healed people, but didn’t heal her.  I guess it comes down to me accepting His will for my life and my mothers...but it is hard when it comes to losing someone you love so dearly.

 

I used to ask myself, "Did he take her from me, was it because I needed her too much?"  It may have nothing to do with me, but it doesn’t change the fact that it hurt me badly.

 

I purchased one of Beth Moore’s bible studies on the Psalms, I hope that this is a step in the right direction to getting my heart healed of the bitterness and removing the hard layers that have formed around my heart and spirit.  Because I sure have avoided God’s word since losing my mother.

 

I actually learned alot this weekend, it gave me a fresh new look at Philippians 3:12-14.  

 

(12 Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. 13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.)

God apprehended me and he has a prize set before me and the race isn’t finished until I have left this earth and this earthly body...and I was reminded that when I die, when I leave this earthy shell of a body, that God has Resurrection power, I will have a new body!

 

Beth Moore broke down some scriptures, and it was amazing.  Jesus came and took on the form of our corruptible bodies, so that one day, we may take on his holy glorious form, in a new uncorruptible body.  I never looked at it that way before....No more fat, no more zits, now wrinkles....LOL.  I can imagine my mom looks so beautiful right now and is so happy :-)  She always said she never wanted to get old...and God took her at the young age of 50.

 

Anyhow...after lunch Saturday with my sister and Pat.  I went home and napped for 30 minutes, then got up, packed up my scrapbooking stuff and met Tina and Maria at the Crop Shoppe in Mandarin.  We stayed and scrapbooked til almost 10pm....whew, I was tired.  It was a blast, even one of our new Crop - Paper - Scissors members showed up to meet us, but she didn’t stay.  

 

A couple of local ladies have emailed me and asked when I will be scrapbooking again, ladies if you are reading this, you should really join Crop Paper Scissors, cause we always post when and where will will be scrapbooking on there :-)  It is hard for me to remember to invite those that aren’t on our email group, cause I have so many great scrapbooking ladies on my myspace friends list, but not all have joined our local scrapbooking yahoo group.  It is just easier to email everyone at once on yahoo.

 

My dh will be home this week, I am so excited.  Once this is posted, I will be off here to get some painting and cleaning done.

 

Thanks for reading this far friends, please pray for me in regards to my spiritual walk with the Lord.  Also, please pray for my sister and her son Kyle, God knows their need.  Also for my friend Marie Crow and her father, her 72 yr old father is in the hospital with Pneumonia, a kidney infection and ecoli...she is afraid he might not make it.  Please pray for his health and for his salvation, because she isn’t 100% sure he is saved.

 

I luff you all.

Happy Scrapping

Updates and UGH...Sick....

OK, been offline for a few days, so this is a general email and blog to my friends and hubby.

One of my BFF’s (best friends forever!) from Jr High/High School arrived Thursday. Things went bad from the get go, lol. While leaving the airport, I got a speeding ticket...:-( I was doing 61 in a 35...I didn’t realize the part of the interstate I was on was that slow, ugh. But, on a happier note, he only fined me as doing 54 in a 35.

Later that day, TIff and I picked up the boys from school...Christian came home with his nose pouring buckets of snot, oh boy. By friday Elijah, Tiff and I were both feeling sick, tickle in our throat, tightness in our chests. By Saturday evening, it had us all totally crippled. Poor Elijah had a temp of 104, luckily, I got it down, the next day he was fine, but still coughing, as he is today as well. Christian is still coughing too. It seems like it must have been very contagious as fast as it hit Tiff, Elijah and I.

I was with some friends Saturday night before I got really, really sick, I pray I didn’t get them sick. Dad isn’t sick, so that is good. Tiff’s son David seems to be fine as well.

As for Tiff and I, we looked and felt like we were dying...I am still feeling it. Not sure about Tiff, she is still in bed. And once I get off this computer...I am laying back down as well.

I was running fever this morning as well, 103, then 101. Haven’t checked it lately. And along with all this crap, I have a cyst on my ovaries that is killing me as well. It has eased up today, but earlier this morning and yesterday everytime I coughed I felt like it was gonna rupture.

Anyhow, please pray for us, we are all feeling miserable.

Updates and Stuff...

Here are some requests, and updates...

I had a great time scrapbooking with my gals saturday, can't wait to do it again, and I will upload the pics soon. We missed ya Candy, ((Big HUGS))

Please, please pray for my friend Candy and her Daughter Miasha. Miasha is very sick and in the hospital...she needs big prayers right now for recovery and healing from her illness.

Also, please pray for my sisters family, and my nephew Kyle...it is an unspoken prayer request...just pray for them in general, God knows their need.

My sister and I have finally made up...Yay! Thanks for everyones prayer and support on this matter...ya know how family/sisters can get into it. ;-) I am sure will will fight again in the future...hopefully not though, lol.

I decided to keep my dog, for now....when it came time to give her to someone, all of us couldn't do it, dad got teary eyed, and I couldn't do it!

Dad quit smoking over a month 1/2 ago (or around that long). I am so very proud of him. Now please continue to pray for his health, his heart, his blood pressure and diabetes...and for him to be able to get his health in order enough to go back to work. The doctors are concerned about his heart, but he has no insurance to go to a Cardiologist, please pray that God will provide for this need.

Also, be praying for me to find a job I can be happy at, I really need to return to work full time to pick up the slack and help get some bills paid off. I haven't had a full time job in years, so I feel really insecure about it right now. Vet tech school may be on hold a bit, at least til I have this all figured out. I mean, if I can do the vet tech course and work, that would be great. God only knows what I am suppose to do, so please pray.

Another thing I am thinking about doing is becoming a stampin Up Demonstrator/Consultant. My only fear...having no customers. But to any of my scrapping friends reading this, if I hold classes will you come to them? And possibly buy products? If I have your support...I might do it. :-) I am already a Home Interiors Consultant....need home decor....I will give you a catalog! :-)

One of my BFF's (Tiffany) from Jr High and High School is coming this week to visit her family and she will be staying with me, so hopefully we can have some fun hanging out. :-) I haven't seen her since my moms funeral and I miss her. :-(

Anyhow, it is late and I have to get up early tomorrow. My sister is coming over to help me paint/clean...I want the house nice and clean and purdy when my dear hubby comes home next month. Please continue to pray for his safety as well.

Hugs and I love you all.

Elijah’s Appointment..

Well, the doctor says he has sensory deprivation issues, and may have aspergers and/or ADD.

She has referred us to a Psychologist to find out for sure. Ugh...darn it, I want my answers and I want them now! LOL

Hubby Called

Hubby was in port yesterday and today, so he gave me a call.  He said he should be home sometime within the first couple weeks of April.  I am counting down the days!  It is a blessing he gets to come home early.

Had scrap club today at Joey's house, she rocks.  We did a cute easter layout.  I am trying to decide whether or not to become a consultant/demonstrator or not...question is...will my scrapper friends support me and order from me once in awhile?  hmmmm....good question.

Tomorrow is Elijah's doctors appointment to see if he has some sort of neurological or ADD problem.  Pray for  us that it goes well.

My back is hurting again, I know it is cause of my fat gut and big arse....LOL.  I try to be lighthearted about it, cause God knows my butt aint light, lol.

Gonna call my  doctor tomorrow to see if my liver and gallbladder function test results are back yet, haven't heard anything yet.

Anyhow, I will blog more tomorrow.

 

 

 

short blog...

First let me start this blog by asking for some prayer for my sisters family, they are going through some trying times (to say the least). Please be in prayer for the Larsons and Rosepilers.

On a happier note, I had a great time last night scrapbooking with Candy, Bobbi and Kim. But we sure missed Tina and Tammy, and all the other girls from our "Crop Paper Scissors" group.

I will write more later,

hugs