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Huck being gone really sucks, this is one of the times it really sucks having a king sized bed...it is so empty. I am trying to keep myself surrounded by family and friends and trying to make new friends as well. I mean, all i have is my father and two sons and a girl needs to have some chat time and fellowship time with someone other than her father and kids all the time...I am a 32 yr old female for petes sake, lol. I have a sister, but she has six kids and she can't spend the time with me I need...I am gonna be really needy for the next 6.5 months...anyone want an adopted daughter or sister? I am now taking applications, LOL.

I had a scrapbooking event at my house and only one person showed up...after I ordered 5 pizza's to feed everyone!!!! I don't think I will be such a gracious host in the future...I try to be a good friend, I try to be giving of myself...all I want is a little reliablity in people. When you say you are gonna do something, do it. Say you are gonna be somewhere, be there...or at least CALL and let them know in advance you aren't coming. I mean I can understand that things happen (like flat tires, broke down cars, illnesses, deaths, funerals, etc.), but some people just like to back out at the last minute, giving no regard for how much planning or money you put into an event.

I just wish I had my best friend Marie...she gets me and I get her...and she was almost always there for me, mind you, she has her own family, but she was there for me most of the time. I am sure I could call her in the middle of the night if I was scared and alone, and she would come stay with me, I can't even say that about family...other than my father, cause hey...he lives here, lol.

Marie, if you are reading this...I love you and miss you, friends like you are few and far between. I miss our scrapbooking nites together, and our dinners at Captain Georges, the playgroups we used to attend with each other, and the lunches we would have with the kids.

Anyhow, enough of my rant...I know I will get through these trials...it just helps to have some close understanding friends along for the ride as well.

London Pictures

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Little Lost Girl....

My dream last night:

I found a little girl, no older than 5, she was beautiful and so sweet, she had blonde hair. She seemed to be lost and came to me for help....I wanted to keep her. I carried her around with me for awhile as if she was my own, she then told me she had to leave and I started crying. She turned to me and told me that she could come back, and she placed her hand on my stomach. She began to walk away, and as she walked away, with her back to me, She met up with a tall dark haired man wearing white...her clothes then turned white also. I watched them as they walked away holding hands down a long narrow road...I was crying not wanting her to leave.

In this dream I had, I told my husband about the girl and that I wanted to have her, he was upset. He didn't want the little girl. Instead, he was riding around in a nice blue firebird. He then started to mock me about my weight. Telling me that I had enough stretch marks and didn't need another baby. I was so upset and crying...then I woke up.

While I have hope that I could have this little girl that came to me in my dream. I am also reminded of the fact that my dear husband has made it quite clear he doesn't want anymore children.
I know he would never make fun of my weight...I think my stress and anxiety were displayed in his reactions in my dream, along with all my insecurities. And he does want his firebird restored, so I think that is why he was there with this firebird.

Anyhow, I am very sad this morning because of this dream. If I am supposed to have another child and it is supposed to be a little girl...maybe God will send her in another dream to me.

Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat

November 1st was a really long day for me, with Huck leaving for deployment and all. So, I really didn't expect to enjoy the dinner theatre I was going to with my sister for her birthday.
But, to my surprise it was the cutest, funnest show I have seen in a long time maybe ever. I never laughed so hard in my life.
It was pretty biblically accurate with comedy added to it. For example....Elvis was The King of Egypt...we got to see Joseph in his gold underwear briefly.
It was a great night, we had pina coladas and dinner and a great musical show.
At the end of the night, Christina even got her picture taken with Joseph and they Guy playing Pharoh (elvis).
Here is the link to the lead guy's website: XanderChanuncey.net Here is Alhambras website: Alhambra

Huck is now deployed

We dropped huck off the morning of November 1st, 2007. We stayed with him at his work while he prepared to leave. When it was time, he got us some ear plugs and took us to watch him fly off in the helicopter. It was pretty cool, I got to actually finally see him fly a helicopter.

Before he had to go, He hugged me, and I didn't want to let go. I tried to hold back the tears...didn't want the boys to see me cry.

He is now in Norfolk, Virginia, until monday, when they leave officially for deployment. Please pray for his safety during this deployment, and also for my sanity and the boys, 7 months is a long time for daddy to be gone. :-(

I will try and keep this blog updated.